Friends forever

What if being friends first doesn't really matter? What if all this fighting that hasn't worked itself out in almost a year means more? I thought being friends first would make it easier. It's made it harder. Harder to stay, knowing too much, harder to leave, when it's my best friend.

To the extreme

It feels a little bipolar. We're constantly experiencing extreme highs or extreme lows. Hmm.

Trust me, I know what I'm doing

I'm working on the trust thing.

What this means, I don't know.

I'm trying to focus on the present, on the future. I'm trying not to be suspicious.

The fundamentals

It's something fundamentally within me: I do not trust men.

I hope to one day overcome this.

Obsessed

I've got to let it go. I obsess over things I cannot change. I've always done it.

I must stop.