Ready to relate

The truth is, I don't really think I'm ready for this kind of relationship. I have marriage issues, I have trust issues, and now I'm supposed to be in a relationship? I'm supposed to be serious about this?

I can't help but think that this is never what I wanted, I was never ready for this, that it just happened, and now I know that if I leave, if I mess it up, I'll never get it back. This is the relationship I want, but the timing feels off. I need to deal with myself.

But he's The One. I just need to get over my issues. I don't want our relationship to suffer over my un-dealt with things.