A month in and I'm looking for a way to sabotage this perfectly nice relationship.
He's just so attentive. I'm suddenly scared to death that at any moment he's going to say I love you and I'm going to cry because it suddenly all feels too soon. It felt fast but logical, now it mostly feels like terror. Mostly I feel like a deer in the headlights.
I thought I was ready for this. But now my inbox has a message from The Ex about how he woke up remembering the way I slept with a smile on my face and I don't think I'm allowed to respond to that. I know he's not right for me. I know this.
I saw his sister today while I was out with The New Boyfriend and I could only hope she didn't see me, I was terrified of having that run in. I was terrified she would report back to him that she saw me with Another Man.
This is adding up to sounding as if maybe, maybe I'm in a little over my head.
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