Bros before hoes

I was tentatively planning to see The Raging Alcoholic Bartender as per my decision to pursue only the best ideas, but I had a thing, and when I was done with my thing, he said he was with The Ex.

And maybe I told him But I want to see you. And he said I want to see you.

And suddenly I can't stop thinking that I got cockblocked by The Ex, to put it in the crudest manner. So I told The Raging Alcoholic Bartender Let me know when you're free. Maybe I'm giving him too much, letting him know that I'm interested, when I know I shouldn't be. I really shouldn't be. And this could go nowhere, now that the ball is in his court, ever since that whole thing where I dated him and The Ex and apparently they're still hanging out and again, to put it crudely, all I can think is Bros before hoes. So it could go nowhere. Aside from the obvious - he is an alcoholic and I shouldn't pursue this because I'm setting myself up to fail and I dated him and The Ex and they are friends and this is a very small town - besides those very small things, I can't shake him. Everything is suddenly him again, and I know I need to stop, to busy myself, that this, too, shall pass if I just give it some time, but right now all I can think is him.

And I saw The Virgin Bartender last night and it was fine, I was fine, definitely aware, but fine. We exchanged pleasantries and then did our separate things while at a jazz performance, me talking to friends and him hitting on every single woman. That's his M.O., and I'm glad he told it to me straight all those months ago.